Birthday

when I woke up this morning
there was no electricity
started listening to Pressing On

I sang my heart out, calling
as if it were a catastrophe
I turned 30, kept a straight face on

feeling the weight of every word and doubt
I switched on Blood on the Tracks
on my birthday I’m crying my eyes out
knowing what my life still lacks

it was beauty that I found
it hurt so much so I bawled
after that I felt strong and proud
I feel as young as when I crawled